my thinkpad

mission

2011-07-20T21:35:00.002+08:00

My 2011 (fitness) goal is to be able to do
1) Toe Push Up (proper form)
2) Chin up --- waaaa, this one will be tough!

I'm still contemplating whether I should join Sabah Adventure Challenge in november. Even though it's 25km, but it's uphill, downhill, running in the mud, gravel. Sounds tough, not sure if I will be able to finish (even though cut off time is 14 freakin hours!).

Let's see....

work trip

2011-07-18T18:22:00.003+08:00

Just got back from PD last Friday - I realized I hate work trip more and more now for few reasons. I don't like spending too much time at the airport waiting, I don't like spending precious 2.5 hrs in the flight, and I certainly don't like the work piling up on my desk...

But despite those reason-I thought my recent PD trip was not bad. I got to stay at c0ru5 hotel, I even brought my running shoes , konon want to run by the beach. But hampeh betul, the shoes didn't even come out once! Blame it on the eating every 2 hrs during seminar.

This weekend will be a busy time, will go to Brunei to pick precious baju raya. I can't wait to see how it turns out! On Sunday, will go for work trip again until Saturday. One whole week! Aiyo, kalau outstation pegi maldives ka, bali ka, atau some other exotic place ok gak. Hmmmppp...

Gotta pack up ....

ikea meat ball

2011-07-12T03:46:00.002+08:00

Today, I feels like eating ikea meatball.....

Yes, I bought two plastic bags of frozen ikea meatball from ikea from last month's kl trip - dalam banyak2 itu jugak yang beli kan?

Tengoklah kalau rajin...

what a monday!

2011-07-11T18:25:00.005+08:00

I have this routine every Sunday ---- do a mental reminder to get up earlier (than other weekdays) for work. I have no idea whyyyyyy Monday traffic is much much worse than any other days? Do people get up like really early on Monday morning?

So, after last night's (many!) self reminders - I woke up early. By early, I mean like super super early which was 4 am! And I couldn't even sleep after that. Can't blame me, I was already asleep by 11pm. After browsing internet trying to kill time - I got ready by the time I was 5 and out the house gate at 515am. Talk about being superrrr superrr productive. I couldn't even find restaurants that were open to get breakfast.

Super productive continued to work where I finished report for meeting by 7.30am --- tapi the thing about starting work early took forever to wait for 1pm lunch break. but the waking up early is only working out on weekdays, weekends are for sleeping in.

Today marks two months I have officially "working out" - so, here are what I've learned in these two months:-

1) no matter how much you want to lose weight, gotta eat, gotta eat- not eating is just gonna slow down metabolism and hence losing lean mass. During the first month, I lose almost 1kg of lean mass and less than that of body fat. So maybe, waaaay too much steady state cardio and skipped meals. The second month, I tried eating more frequently and gained back that lost lean mass and at the same time lose (more) bf than a month ago.
2) HIIT - high intensity interval training rocks! I can only do so much long steady state cardio, I think now, I just squeezed in 20-25 mins of HIIT after yoga class (i iz lazy to run for an hour)
3) Variety works - gotta fit variety of exercises into routine to avoid boredom.

And I have not had fast food for the last two months!

Going to some conference on Wednesday.. I am soooo lazy to pack, I have started listing down my to-pack-list , but yet to put anything in the luggage. heck, I haven't unpack my backpack from my (not so recent) kl trip... malass....

fitness

2011-07-03T08:02:00.003+08:00

Productive weekend yesterday
- Finished my work @ starbucks before gym
- Went for 1.5 hr of gym workout
- Indoor rock climbing - it was awesome! i think my yoga class helps me to be more flexible

Despite how I complained about being sore and super-ass tired (not to mention intense nausea) after workout , i am loving the effects it.

- back pain, shoulder and neck stiffness are gone
(because i usually go to massage like monthly to get rid of this back pain)
- in better mood in general ( my colleagues can attest to this statement )
- more energy in general
- increased fitness level

Although I had to change few things -
- Be out of the door before 6am to get to the office by 7.30, because I want to get out of office by 430

next : maybe go to belay class so that I can belay people safely

penyakit 5 words

2011-06-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

omg. malasnya these days. i have gazillion of stuff to do in the office - having too much work demotivates me.

I do analysis for a living - and this affect my daily lives as well. As an analyst, I tend to over-analyze everything. Like, if I want to go to 3 places (eg, shopping, gym, errands, groceries), I would optimize my journey so that I would travel less including having to consider baggages/groceries bags that I might have to carry.

I am also obsessed about wiki-ing and researching info. I think I was the only few yang baca 30 pages manual of how to do assessment on your staff. I dig thru the office policy handbook to find out about policy on replacement leave (this due to someone in the office raised up issue on 5 days limit for replacement leaves)- they're wrong btw. I researched about how bad sit-ups/twist sit-ups for back/spine so that I won't be committing the crime of doing my body harm instead of good. And how about stagnant/steady cardio is not good for fat loss? Or there's no such thing as spot reduction? Obsessed much huh?

Somehow being in the world where information is everywhere, you just have to find the truth by yourself, isn't it?

Here here to google :D

cuti - cuti malaysia

2011-06-16T17:50:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for cuti next week.. Oh yea, I'll be in KL next week for a little getaway.. I have no specific agenda - except gonna take the time to eat ikea meatball and makan2 time. So, who's free to meet next week????

On another note, I thought working out is gonna make me fit and healthy.. tapi.... i end up with sore bodies afterward most after training. If this week was sore arms+back next week would be sore quads, and now..... it's super sore calves. I can't even stand straight which leaves me walking tip-toe everywhere. So, no gym this week as I neeeeed to rest and heal. hehehehe.. excuses.. excuses..

PT4

2011-06-08T08:01:00.003+08:00

- Elliptical 15 mins - 100 calories (very difficult to do when u have a sore quad)
- Push up to plank 20 (first set), 10x3 (afterwards)
- Vertical leg crunch 25x4
- Leg raise 25x4
- twist with weight plate 25x4
- treadmill 1.5km at 15% incline

dietery changes:-
-avoid minyak2/fried food
-lite dinner obviouslly

with level t4 going down and age is not on my side- have to be extra hard to be superfit...

must do planks everyday now to strengthen the core and back
(back pain go awaaaay please - time to buy a new mattress)

of dream and such...

2011-06-08T07:50:00.003+08:00

Last night, I dream of being pregnant with twin! I even went to scan and in shock aftward to found out two babies in my bellies. Gawd, imagine me with twin, i bet i can't even walk straight or climb up the stairs. What's next? I hope I won't be seeing dancing babies soon like ally mcbeal. (Obviously, this could be from watching too much tv)

I've been changing my body clock-time- meaning i get up like reallly really early (not that early!) to get ready for work. I even try to leave the house before 6am most days (insane i know!). Why the change? Since I've joined the gym and developed loathe for being in jammed, I tried to leave early in the morning and go home late at night. So, this means, I leave before everyone in the house gets up, and get home when everybody is in their bedroom. Luckily, no husband or babies waiting at home. Otherwise, my kids would be like, "errrr, who are u? r u my mummy?" Hehehehe..

If this goes on well in June, I'm hoping to change my flexi hour to 7.30-4.30. That means I could be home latest at 7pm and have time to relax and watch my fav show...

well, we'll see...

on food

2011-06-05T12:16:00.004+08:00

Note the healthy resolution...

I have not had fa(s)t food for the last month, mcDonalds, KFC, pizza hut and other fast food. Despite the mood swings and craving for deep fried french fries, I managed not to give in to eating 600 calories french fries..
Not that I'm counting calories or anything..

Don't worry I still eat normal food. I can't imagine myself eating bland wholewheat bread (no mayo) + steamed (tasteless chicken breast) + salad.. To those who can, I salute you.. Being in a country surrounded by yummmmmy food everywhere, how can you resist???

Finally...

Here here to yummmmmy foood everwhere!!!!

PT3

2011-06-04T20:11:00.003+08:00

Must document all trainings for future reference...

Today workout:-
1.Warm up - brisk walking 5.9km/hr for 20 mins at 15% incline
2. Barbell curl and shoulder press combo 25 x 4
4. Barbell squat 25 x 3 (omg! i hate squat - with weight? hate it even more! didn't finish the last set sbb lutut literally shaking)
5. Bend Leg Raise 25 x 4 ( getting better at this as last time had difficulty to finish)
6. Vertical Leg Crunch 25 x 4 (this one fail - sbb core mmg weak, so am getting assisted by trainer)
7. Lift both legs 45 degrees and hold for 1 minute x 4 sets (quite hard to do- i can only do 20 secs max)

Kalau tulis macam sikit, tapi penaaaatt wooo , mmg lembik lah.. hahahah..

Soreness - so far not yet. But let's see how I feel tomorrow..

celebs

2011-06-02T14:24:00.002+08:00

who knew bradley cooper speaks fluent french..

hotness...

update

2011-06-01T16:27:00.003+08:00

Con and Chris's wedding pictures are up in her facebook. Wasn't she glowing and beautiful? I think they met in church group, so it's like a gift from God... Check out their faces, couple do resemblance each other, doesn't it?
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I'm dying to go travel. Yet, my work schedule is basically packed with so many things to do. I might even have to cancel my Bali Trip in September due to work (yikes!).

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On growing up - I've taken in consideration of having my own place! But KK properties is insaaaaaanely expensive for single income (normal people). There's no way people can afford descent property without having to starve every month. 15 years ago, single income family could afford property,car,feed the whole family and save for the children. I doubt that could happen nowadays (unless your pay is super-duper high).
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I'm going for yoga class later this evening.

Check out this article, it explains all about body composition.

So after reading it, I knew my lean body mass is 40kg, so there is no way I could dip below 40kg without looking like a skeleton. So, make a realistic goal yea for those who want to lose weight or gain muscles.

con n chris's wedding

2011-05-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

just got back from con and chris's wedding....

i didn't get to go to her church ceremony, but i did get a sneak peek from video shown during the reception. it was a wonderful wedding as con n her man had their first dance, and also performance from the con n her sisters.

those who missed it, might have the chance to see it on facebook. if she post it lah... but i'm sure somebody would ...

didnt take pictures as camera wouldnt fit into my little clutch - so i'm hoping to see picture from the official photographer :)

WO 19052011

2011-05-19T22:35:00.003+08:00

In attempt to increase fitness level, had another session with PT today. Still being sore from last tuesday's workout doesn't stop me from my goal. Apa yea the goal? To live a healthy lifestyle and also increase my fitness level. Losing weight or being skinny comes second. Of course, there's no point being skinny if I'm still lembik. OMG, I'm so lembik that I could barely do 15 sets of sit ups let alone do burpees made me gasping for air and struggling to finish. Also, I have lose my flexibility that I could barely stretch during yoga class.

Workout today:-
- 200 calories on treadmill (which was easy peasy)
- Kick boxing (errr, I have trouble with steps which needs hand-feet- coordination, I'm sooo very mechanical that I have to think through all the steps which explains my inability to dance.)
- Sit ups 15 x2
- Leg raise 15 x 2
- sit ups 6 x 2 ( i managed to get discount for this. heheheheh...)

Personally I would rather spent 1 hour on the treadmill than doing 10 mins of core exercises.

Currently reading:
1) Dr in the house : page 222/809 pages

Later!

WO 17052011

2011-05-17T22:09:00.003+08:00

Today is public holiday ( yeaaaay!). So, instead of lazing around at the house, I spent my day being sort-of productive. Had family lunch outside and had a session with personal trainer @ the gym.

Today was weight training day. Basically doing few reps on weight machine. Reminded me the time at mueller center. I missed the time when i was able to run 5 miles on the treadmill without gasping for air and was able to do weight training without anybody's looking. The gym that I go now, basically the weight training area was fuuuull with guys after office hours. So, there's no way I'm going there except for weekends.

So, today I ended with sore body even though I'm doing kiddie weight (10lbs, whaaaattt??) .

I gotta catch up on my reading. But nowadays, I spent more time reading technical stuff at home. What a geek right? This is kinda the good thing and bad thing about working in technical world. The good thing is that u'll never be bored, cause the learning never stops and there's no way you can catch up on time (unless you're a genius), the bad thing is that the work doesn't stop at the office. It'll follow you everywhere...

off day

2011-05-15T16:33:00.002+08:00

How is your Sunday? I spent my time chillexing at home, drinking coffee and lazing around... Considering tomorrow is working day, so it's not so bad giving your body a day off ,isn't it?

I had yoga class yesterday, my first yoga after few years not practicing. omg, it was freaking hard. One of the pose was trying to do a split, I for one can't do that but few aunties in the class can splits which would put me to shame... I gotta admit I'm not flexible nor athletic... So, after yesterday's gruelling yoga class + 20 mins on the treadmill (which i only burnt 100 calories, I envy breastfeeding moms who burn 500 calories per day!) , I woke up today with soreeee body. Hopefully this will go away soon.

Gotta go.. .

update

2011-05-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

omg! super lazy to update blog....

Nothing much is going on except I've turned 28 years old. when i was 23, i thought when i turned 28 I'mustve been soo mature by then. but looking at me now ,I dont feel a day like 28..

But I must say, I don't really hate growing old-er. It's kinda awesome. I remembered being young, filled with emotional drama, and not to mention the crazy mood swing. The thing about being older, I don't feel that way (most of the time) anymore. Okaylah, when u were young, there's always that friends envy, who have the fanciest car, who have biggest paycheck, the hottest body and the list goes on forever. But now, I couldn't care less about other people. Asalkan sendiri happy, oklah tu.

BIM - Borneo International Marathon. I decided not to run this year, as I am very much lack in training. Nanti takut halfway during run pengsan, sendiri yang susah. So, I'm skipping this year. By skipping, I mean, I might run next year hopefully come prepared. I want a running buddy! Also, I've joined Gym since my birthday. the gym membership is my birthday present for myself. Rather than buying expensive gadget, I better give myself health and a rocking body (wahahaha, i wish!)

Because I hardly work out nowadays, by hardly meaning almost never. Now that I PAY for gym, I might as well go so that the money won't be a waste. Paying for gym is expensive, so I might have to cut down the montly massages. No more spa-ing like madam tai-tai yerr... The gym membership also includes few personal training (very few) which I'm also interested. I mean, all these while work out suka-suka hati, it's kinda nice to know the how and what of these work out. Well, we'll see...

Okay, gotta continue work.

Have an awesome weekend yea!

wedding fever

2010-12-02T12:06:00.002+08:00

Ohh, it's the wedding fever.. School holidays equal to weddings everywhere , oh yeah, and kids running around in the mall. Bottom line, avoid malls during weekend. I know ive done that.

Talking about wedding, what's with the societal pressure of getting married? one thing ive learnt is that, one shouldnt get married just for the sake of getting married. Whats the point of getting married if it means being unhappy and settling for less? If you watch have you met your mother, you will see ted mosby's journey is a verrry long one. I mean its already season 6 , and the mother is nowhere to be seen (except for the ankle). Any idea, of who's the mother?

Im enjoying the bliss of single life and by that travelling whenever i can and enjoying my single paycheck to pamper myself ( going for massage every month-serupa macam madam tai tai eh?)

planned trip for next year: march, may, august, september

* thinking to have another trip in december to close 2011 ..

it's not even 2011, but im already seeing shadow of 2011 trip, how about europe?

till next time..

2011 plan

2010-11-23T16:36:00.003+08:00

1) Take diving course
Pre-requisite : must learn swimming properly
Pre-requisite of above: have a swimsuit ready body
Pre-requisite of above: go to gym
Pre-requisite of above: Prepare to pay $$$$ to gym

misc

2010-11-23T15:40:00.002+08:00

Had blood test few weeks ago as I wanted to have Hep. B Vaccination. Do you know that the Hep B antibody is declining over the years? Basically,we need booster every 5 years to maintain sufficient antibody for Hep B.

SO based on report, everything is ok. Although my thyroid level is lower compared to few years ago. Meaning, I need to boost it by drinking coffee and eating tonsss of chocolate!

Caffeine rocks!

2011

2010-11-18T00:37:00.002+08:00

2011 is less than 2 months!

2010 is not so bad after all.. im expecting 2011 to be more more exciting..

i have bought ticket to bali for next year! no plan yet, as i am expecting a solo adventure.. being 27 and never really travel alone (work trip doesn't count)??? this could be my eat pray love adventure! so maybe go for spa, yoga class and might go sign up for surfing class...

so, the 2011 mantra is don't wait for things to happen, make it happen!

beauty product: foundation

2010-11-03T11:12:00.007+08:00

Here's the continuation of last post...

Foundation is the most important makeup in my beauty case... It basically evens out your skin tone, can cover up redness/imperfection and also can provide basic sunscreen protection (providing your foundation has spf).

So before putting on makeup, wear base/primer. Primer/Base is basically providing a base for your foundation. Your foundation/Makeup would glide easily. Also, it could shrink your pores so that you could achieve that flawless skin.

1)Body Shop Matte It Primer RM49.90 @ Body Shop for 30ml. This Primer provides matte finish, absorbs excess oil and leaves you with matte look. In my opinion, this one is like clinique pore minimizing gel - only cheaper. If you want a dewy glowy look, skip this primer.
2) Sephora Primer - I am super loving this primer.. Bought in in Sephora @S'pore for $19.00. It's dewy and has a little bit of shimmer. The texture is creamy. You could mix this with your matte foundation to achieve the dewy/glowing look or wear it under foundation. I bought this because it provides the same function as mac strobe cream.
For foundation, I prefer liquid foundation because it glides easily and doesn't give me that cakey look- but this is just me. It's so important to find the right shades for your skin to look natural, otherwise you're just gonna look like wearing a mask. The trick is to just put on makeup on your chin, and compare to your neck. If it blends with your skintone, then it is the right color. Otherwise choose darker/lighter color. Pls don't try it on the back of your hand, the color is different there.

I usually splurge on foundation. Why? I couldn't really find my shades in the drugstore that doesn't my face loooking grey-ish. Plus, foundation lasts me 1-2 years, so I'm guessing it's worth it.

1)Maquiliquide UV Infinité Liquid FoundationBought this @ Parkson RM126. This is a water based foundation so as you might guess it's very lightweight ( as opposed to creamy). It provides sheer to medium foundation but definitely builadable. Bear in mind, the finish is not matte, it's gonna give you a slightly dewy look (as it's water based, so the makeup could easily be oxidized). Top up this foundation with powder if you want a matte look.

2) Studio Fix Fluid Foundation
Got this at mac for RM105 recently . The texture is creamy yet as it was claimed this is oil-free. The coverage is medium to full.. I was matched to NW35 ( I was NC35 before). If I want a matte look, I just wear this on it's own , while if I want a bit dewy look, I just mix this with my primer ( so it's gonna be a bit sheer and dewy). The good thing about this foundation, you don't have to put on powder afterwards, as it last quite long plus the matte effect. So far I've been using this foundation, no major breakouts yet.. The only thing I hate about this foundation is it doesn't have a pump, so I couldn't control the amount of foundation I want to dispense.

3) Mac Mineralize SkinFinish

Got this at mac for rm105 last year ( this was last year's price. Have no idea what's the price now). I kinda have a love/hate feeling with this foundation. It's a sheer foundation with a bit of shimmer to it. Basically it will gives you that dewy/glowy look, but.... there's a but.. sometimes after wearing it forawhile you could end up looking very greasy. So the solution is, to just powder on top of foundation. I think this could work if you want to wear for a short time, but if you want to have a long-lasting makeup, dont wear this as it could easily be gone by half of the day. Will I buy this again: probably not.

Those are the foundations that I've used and am using. How do i put on my foundation>
1) Finger - this works as your finger could warm up the foundation and will make the makeup glides easily.
2) Foundation brush - I have body shop foundation brush, and I don't really fancy it much. Using foundation brush basically you have to paint your face, and really blends it. If not properly blended, you could end up with streaks and patches on your face
3) Sponges - I am not a sponge person, as I think using sponge could waste products since the products basically will be absorbed in the sponge.
4) Stipple Brush - this is my new love! Okay fine, I dont a mac 187 brush to show off. But, I got a lumiere stipple brush which is i think serves as the same function as 187. This cuts down half the time and blends my foundation perfectly.

Okay.. until next products :D

Beauty Product 1

2010-10-24T10:41:00.008+08:00

I know... I know.. it's been gazillion years since I last blog... I was lazy or maybe I was simply doesn't have anything to say...

SO this blog is supposed to be fun and vain.. Rather than writing about political issues or world agenda, I'd rather blog about something fun like makeup :D

So here is my makeup counter:
So the big vase actually holds face products and the small vase holds eye products... While the box organizer holds foundation, brushes and lipstick...

While some people actually born with perfect flawless skin, unfortunately I aint one of them... I guess I'm one of those young at hearts who still get breakouts even at my age... who says only teens get breakouts? those people are lying... So the goal is to wear makeup but looks like not wearing makeup at all... tricky eh? but actually you neeed mooooore products to actually looks like not wearing makeup..

So what is your makeup routine? I usually spend 10-15 minutes for makeup routine every morning including toning and mosturizing... So here is the normal makeup routine

1) Tone and mosturize
(always mosturize, so that your foundation will glide easily> No matter how oily the face is, you need hydration. I realize when I skipped moisturizer, my face could get dry spots by midday)
2) Foundation using lumiere duo fiber brush
(I found that applying foundation using stippling brush is easier and cuts down the time it takes to apply foundation. plus it's so much easier to blend the foundation compared to using foundation brush/fingers)
3)Concealer
(Undereye is a must! how to get rid of eyebag??? also, blemishes if necessary)
4)Powder
(Loose powder to set foundation. I found that water based foundation could easily slipped off the face, so setting it by powder will make it last longer)
5) Blush
6) Optional
- White eyeliner on inner corner of eye
- Eyeliner ( I use gel eye liner ! I found it more water resistant than pencil kind. Plus, it doesn't smudge by mid-day)
-Eye shadow
-Lipstick/Lipgloss

I'm all set!!!

So next time maybe I'll write down about the makeup products I've been using ...

Enjoy the rest of your sunday!

Gym or No Gym

2010-06-05T21:03:00.003+08:00

So.. after running half marathon - I've found out that I am sooo not fit at all... So in attempt to be fit (and be healthier), I'm thinking maybe I could sign up for gym... (this also to lose the gazillion kilos I've gained since got out of college)

Criteria:-
1) Location : Near workplace
2) Free parking (there's no way I want to pay for gym AND parking!)
3) Got the basic facilities - shower etc

Being an analyst and all, no decisions are done without some research. So here are some finding so far:-

1) 1Fitness - 1Borneo
- Price: RM139 1 time fee, and RM119 monthly
- Parking -NOT FREE - Considering now the parking fee is RM2 per day , if I actually go average 4 times a week, I would be paying extra RM32 just for parking.
- Location: good, near workplace
- Facilities: quite good, they have cardio and weight as well as group exercise

2) Core Fitness - Citimall
- Price: from research - it's rm180 per month start anytime stop anytime. but 1 year commitment is RM1800 (rm150 per month)
- Parking - Free parking - although sometimes it's hard to find parking there sometimes
- Location: okay, not near workplace but it's on my way home
- Facilities - good: cardio, weight and plenty of classes

3) Promenade hotel Gym - Promenade Hotel
- Price: rm120 per month
- Parking - Free
- Location - not near workplace, but on my way home
- Facilities - limited: cardio and weight - but no classes

4) Michelle & Scott Gym - Damai
- Price: ??
- Parking- Free
- Location- on my way home
- Facilities -???

Gonna find out others soon...

second half marathon!

2010-05-02T14:07:00.004+08:00

I just finished running my second half marathon! I haven't gotten my official time yet, but I'm assuming it's around 3:35-3:40. Oklah much worse than my last time which was 3:16 but still I get to finish the distance.

Honestly this time around, I didn't train that much. I wish would've, then I would be up and running instead of in bed recovering.. yikes! So all these while, I did few training itu pun around workplace, which was like what once a month. Work was kinda taking my time lately... Hmmmm, come to think about it, why should I invest so much time in work when I'll be getting the same compensation>> So I guess if I were to put the same work commitment and dedication to my training schedule, I'm sure I'll even do better if not great personal time as well as great bods (I'm saying MY personal time okay, errrr, maybe sub 2.30 is not great for others, but for me that's great) .

So here's how the journey begin.... I signed up for BIM half marathon sometime in march with the hope in two months time I actually trained. Days and months passed, yesterday came. Boy, time flies! Went to pick up my race kit and bought two power gels for the run. I also did a great stretching/warm up yesterday by bringing my nieces to 1B. The night before was quite nerve-wrecking, I was nervous about not finishing, about not training, about not being waken up by the alarm.... So I picked up the most boring book of all, and finally dapat juga tidur...

The morning...
I woke up at 3am - shower, get ready, make coffee and find breakfast in the kitchen... By 4am I was already at the door, driving to Likas Stadium while having breakfast in the car. Reached LS around 4.50 and started warming up and taking the pre-run snack.

By 5.30 am, the siren started, and people started running.... I tried not to rush the first few kms, remember the analysis I did in my previous post? heheheh... So one by one started passing by me . The first few kms was okay but my pace wasn't fast enough to pick up the 8 mins/km pace. I was running basically around 9 mins/km and this was during the first few kms.. We passed through pasar where the 10k runners turned around (5km marker).. At that time, I kinda wished I was running for the beginner 10k.

Next we passed wawasan plaza, and this was when the trouble began.... My legs started to hurt, so I started rubbing muscle rub on them... The thing about this muscle rub , it's kinda like minyak panas... It felt hot and kinda give that numb feeling to the muscles... By 730 am, the sun came out, and let me tell you, it was freakingly hot... Okay, I complaint 2 years ago that the sun was hot right? This year around, it was burning hot! Is it possible that our ozone has thinning over the course of two years?

Instead of going into Sutera Harbor, the route this year is a bit different. We go into Tg Aru, and turned around at Waikiki Apt. That was the 10.5 marker. Oh yea, I did post a facebook status update on-the-run :D

Going out from Tg Aru, I passed the great Ulai who ran her first FULL MARATHON... Okay, that's 42 KILOMETERS> That's far! Only someone who has her commitment and guts dare to take on that challenge. And the thing is, she looked pretty good at her 30km... when I was almost limping on my 13km...

I started to run-walk on my 15km... the weather was hot- my face and legs felt burning hot. So next time, have to wear cap. The weird thing was, my fingers were practically swollen! I got the fat fingers symptoms on the run.. This was new experience to me coz it didn't happen to me last time. I'm assuming it was because of the too warm weather???

So going back to Likas Stadium was kinda painful, I think I almost hit the wall! Worse point, Jesselton to LS. It was hot, my legs hurts, my big fat fingers numb - I think at one point I almost wanna quit and be picked up.. But I didn't ... So I kept running and (occasionally walk) until I reached the finishing line ! Yeay --- so the truth is maybe it's 50% mind and 50% stamina.... But having stamina defnitely gives you more confidence of finishing...

By the time I reached the stadium, the others were already there... We waited for the great Ulai to finish her 42 kms.. cheh, cayalah Ulai....

gonna continue this soon...

7.30 pm - headache, nausea, soreness... I've taken painkillers to ease off the pain, and hopefully tomorrow I can book a massage session. .

p/s Please DO NOT ATTEMPT to run without adequate training. You're just gonna subject to injury (like me)

analytical runner

2010-04-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

So... 10 more days till race day...

Being underprepared.. i can't help but to plan the "strategy"... and by strategy i don't mean, start running now for miless....

I'm planning my time so that i can actually finish within the allocated time. After starting calculating.. so here is the plan

first 7 kms ---> pace is 8 mins/km
second 7kms ---> pace is 9 mins/km
thirds 7kms ---> pace is 10 mins/km

This plan assumes that my energy will depletes after 7km.. So now the first step is up, I gotta identify where is the above points? anybody has map with the km points????

iron lady ...

2010-04-13T23:01:00.004+08:00

I wish! I'm gonna be participating in BIM this year with verrrryyy little preparation...

This is taken from previous BIM's post:

For next time, what helps:-
1) Good preparation(including morning run)
2) Good night sleep
3) Power gels during the run
4) Training buddies
5) Schedule and sticking to it

Cheh, iya-iyalah to do list... when it's time I forgot all about it...

Unlike the last one, where I actually trained during ramadhan month, this time around- the rainy weather I wish I am a brilliant inventor who can invent something like arc reactor which can power up something.. Well, the goal here is to finish... finish.. finish.. within the allocated time. Okaylah, as long as 1) Faint 2) Cramp 3) Vomit on the road ...

This is pre-iron man 2 obsession.. So, I've been youtubing RDJ ... and found some cute clips of him and his wife! So cuteeeee...

Allright.. have a greaaaat day... I gotta come up with some brilliant ideas...

long weekend

2010-04-03T12:21:00.006+08:00

This blog has been abandoned for so looooong...

Since this week is a long weekend, why don't write one post of update?

Anyway, I've been buying lots of dvd boxset of tv shows since my hard disk & external hard disk have been running out of space. Yes, I am very sentimental as it's hard for me to delete tv shows that I've collected over the years... Here are some of tv-shows in my boxset collection:- ally mcbeal, sex and the city, house, friends, will & grace, lipstick jungle and friends. Okay, I'm officially have become a true couch potato...

So for the past few months, I've been watching ally mcbeal. I used to watch the show gazillion years ago but stopped when billy died. I was overly emotional at that time that I almost cried when he drop down dead in the court... And after that, the show was kinda blaah, season 3 is kinda boring that I almost wanna fast forward through the season. But not until R0bert D0wnery Jr came to the show and basically resuscitate the show back to life. Definitely Billy is not the love of ally's life, RBJ is... I love him in the show. The fact that he can sing is definitely gives additional points!

Okaylah, he's old now... But I guess he's one of the people who looks better as years passed by... oh, my. I hope this doesn't mean I like older men.. hehehhe...

Pls tell me you don't think he's hot here!

Anyway, this week will be RDJ's week for me. Movies marathon will include Iron Man, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang and the Soloist...

I can't wait for Iron Man 2. Oh yea, and I after checking out my leave schedule, I coincidently had planned my leave on the premier's day. You bet I'll be watching the first show :D

Allright.. gonna go resume my download.

Later, hv a great weekend

Maliau Basin

2010-03-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

coming sooonnnn.....

new year update

2010-02-18T11:49:00.005+08:00

Gowd, I've been pretty lazy on updating this blog.. New Year, New Hair-Do, and hopefully a new great journey of 2010.

I have new guilty pleasure now! I love watching Giuliana & Bill.. Normally I dont fancy couple's reality show but they're sooo relaxed and selamba... and watching giuliana & bill marathon has become part of my relaxing weekend...

So speaking of couple-ship... I think for relationship that ends, the most common mistake is to remember all the good-ness in it which probably isn't quite accurate. There must be reasons for it to end, and by that I mean, the conflict must be there somewhere... So take it from sex and the city, the way to get over a man is to play the thing you hate about him over and over again in your head!

anyway.... have a great day ahead!

workout of the week (WEEK I)

2010-02-04T11:56:00.004+08:00

Monday : off (finish meeting late)
Tuesday : off
Wednesday : 3km (Likas Lake)
Thursday : 10 mins of jog + 30 mins strength training
Friday : off (gosh my body is sore!!!)
Saturday :
Sunday :

run fatgirl run....

2010-01-11T14:41:00.002+08:00

My Running maybe START tomorrow...

I meanWILL start ... tomorrow...

I mean HAVE TO START tomorrow....

pretty baby

2010-01-11T09:47:00.003+08:00

Happy new Year!!!!!

let's just start new year in a good note eh?

Seeeeee this pretttyy baby :)

Last year, my niece joined sweetest baby contest organized by Kids Avenue KK and she won the pretty baby title.... (Eheeemmmm, shot was taken by ME!)

But look at this... when she was given the prize, malu2 kucing pulak when they want to take her picture....

Shot of the pretty girl:)

Cute kan she????

birthday boy

2009-12-09T08:01:00.002+08:00

Last week was a celebration for little Adam....
checkout how excited he was!

training 101

2009-11-19T20:43:00.003+08:00

I have to give out training tomorrow... I don't fancy public speaking, but I guess if I have to do it, then I HAVE to do it. How exactly do you make people sit on their seat and be interested? Trust me, I've been on that seat, and gosh and how many times the thought of "OMG! this guy/girl is sooo boring, pls be over sooon!!!!" been running through my mind. It's hard to be interesting and all technical at the same time (for me lah). How exactly do you make training clicking here and there interesting? Although I've been to training where the trainer seems to be natural speaker, they can make the worst training interesting by exciting presentation as well as making jokes here and there and interesting intermission (funny short video?)...

Hmmm, I might google some video to include in my training..

Wish me luck! Hope people won't be yawning tomorrow... blergk..

preloved items

2009-11-08T19:52:00.007+08:00

Hey ya all...

Sorry for the long hiatus... It's not that I'm not around but... Errrr, I have nothing much to write I guess... All the pouring creative energy is almost gone.... Anyway... here's some updates..

Marathon
- Didn't run for half marathon this year. I opt to go to R's wedding instead because I can always run next year, but R's wedding maybe never come around... Me n gals during the reception... More pictures in my facebook...

Took 1 week leave to rejuvenate... Went to lokkawi zoo n bring these two lil active kidssss... Ulai, babysitting them is more tiring than running 21 kms u know....
Went to Sandra's garage sale as she'll be moving out of KK soon... my nieces got these, all preloved items.... Sandra, hope your move will be smooth :) Looking forward to read your experience from your blog!

half empty

2009-08-09T20:41:00.004+08:00

63 days to HALF MARATHON! And I haven't trained at ALL! I'm sure my mental capacity can handle the 21 km after going through this YEAR, but physically I'm sure I would hit the wall at km5...

Okay... Training will officially start tomorrow, 5 km per run minimum for this week, and this will increase for the upcoming weeks... I'm still thinking how to train during fasting month. Hmmm, any ideas? The last time I trained during fasting month last year, I almost faint of dehydration... Errr, plus, being single and all, I can't go home early, totally makes me unmotivated to train like an hour before breaking fast. Hmm, I guess I have to figure this one out soon...

I'm itching for another vacation, but at the same time I'm worried of the mountains of paperwork in the office ( sign of workaholics?)...

Okay, wouldn't want to complain much... Life could be worse, right? And a little optimism wouldn't hurt, plus I don't wanna grow old and bitter...

Have a pleasant week everyone!

wish

2009-08-02T11:48:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday
May you wishes come true...

geek or freak?

2009-07-28T21:24:00.004+08:00

I think my life has revolved around these IT people for waaaay too long. And I actually realized this when we were having lunch today. So we went off to lunch outside of office area, and most of us are IT people. So we were talking about riddles (can't remember what it was), then somehow it got to the topic of fishing. So, there we were talking about fishing, fishing poles, and then the fishing lure. Then my colleague mention about how fishes nowadays are not attracted to modern fishing lure except for fewer ones.. Then we started to make hypothesis of why that is... Another friend started saying maybe their image processing broken.. then it got to small RAM that it makes slow processing. Then, it hit me, "OMG, we are such geeks!". whylah this interesting topic of fishing somehow can be relatable to a modern computer? I have no idea!

Uji, please find some artsy fartsy friends who can actually start a sentence without saying "logically speaking" (er, I do admit i start lots of my sentence with this!)

update

2009-07-19T16:49:00.004+08:00

oh my.. it's been awhile since my last update... Nothing much had been going on, only I'll be taking 3 days off starting tomorrow after a month of working monday-sunday for most weeks last month.

- Run 7k Sutera Harbor (did this yesterday, and omg i almost fainted half-way through)
- Erk, decide whether to run half marathon this year and submit application form for early bird price. With current stamina and level-of-mind, errrrr, I haven't quite decided yet... I might as well join the 800 meter for kiddies.
- Plan my trip to kl 14-17 august. Places to go, people to meet, place to stay?
- Get over ex-boyfriend
- Plan for next year's vacation. Mmmmm, maybe somewhere exotic?
- Get a hair trim, shorter haircut definitely! Does short hair really makes you look young-er?
- Summer clean the closet and finally get rid of the size Zeros jeans ( i kept them in the hope of being able to fit into them one of these days)

Anyway, it's been raining cats and dogs in kk lately, it's a perfect excuse to stay under the duvet!

Let me leave you with this picture of these two cuties... Ayu and Baby Adam who grow so fast! Aren't they such posers?

definitely a friend

2009-05-31T02:32:00.000+08:00

summer hiatus...

2009-05-31T00:27:00.003+08:00

it's summer hiatus for most shows. So, here is my playlist until fall tv is back..

Samantha Who
Lipstick Jungle
The Office
Last few episodes of Heroes
True Blood

Oh yea, did I tell you, while I was stuck in malacca for two weeks (without astro channel and internet connection in the hotel), I "secretly" followed malay drama series "matahari"... So much for drama....

update

2009-05-29T11:42:00.002+08:00

I've started to run again (or maybe walking is the correct word here)....

So.. I'm gonna log my fitness progress here, with the hope it'll actually stay this time around... Although, I'm not really sure that I'm quite capable of running 21 km this year. We'll see...

Tuesday: 4 rounds (walk) ~ 4km
Wednesday : 4 rounds (walk+run) ~4km

Jogging with girlfriends is soo much fun. We don't need to jog faster, we just have to gossip to raise up our heart rate ;)

I've decided I want to have long floooowy hair when I get hitched... And I just cut my hair pixie short, go figure... Maybe the short hair will stick for awhile. So far, I'm loving it!

haircut

2009-05-17T22:24:00.008+08:00

I had a new haircut before my birthday...

But I'm getting bored with it after few weeks... So, thinking of getting it shorter like this one? Dunno if I can pull it off, since the cheeks area have gone rounded over the years! Hahahahh.. Tapi who cares kan, with the new haircut, I'll probably spend less than 5 minutes getting ready in the morning....

fight-or-flight

2009-05-14T14:25:00.002+08:00

I don't do fights. In fact I hate fights because I don't even know how to fight fair. Being a taurus that makes it even worse, we taurus are stubborn creatures. How the hell do they do that in the movie? Like fighting so calmly without screaming and screeching noises? Most of the time I choose to flight and brood in silence. You can totally tell that I'm pissed cause you'll get that cold shoulder aura from me. But I'll turn around eventually, I always do.

Don't blame me for this, maybe I do have overdrive biological cue for my fight-or-flight response?

Males and females tend to deal with stressful situations differently. Males are more likely to respond to an emergency situation with aggression (fight), while females are more likely to flee (flight) turn to others for help, or attempt to diffuse the situation -'tend and befriend'.

Do you fight or flight?

birthday & b&s

2009-05-13T17:38:00.002+08:00

You Are a Visionary

You tend to be a the rock in relationships - people depend on you.

Thoughtful and caring, you often put others needs first.

You aren't content to help those you know... you want to give to the world.

An idealist, you strive for positive change and dream about how much better things could be.

Your strength: Your intuition

Your weakness: You put yourself last

Your power color: Rose

Your power symbol: Cloud

Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I had a little too much time on my hand before heading home... So, took the time to find out what's my birth date mean which I found so not true... i don't think i'm a visionary-i'm more like a realist. i'm not an idealist-i'm a pure realist with tad of cynicism. And I'm not the rock in a relationship, it's more like i put my relationship in a rocky positions - always do. But I do dream of better things in life, who doesn't?

I watched B&S finale on monday and found it quite sad... Not for Justin & Rebecca (spoiler) who get engaged, but i think justin's proposal is soooo sweeeeeet. I mean what could top that? Exactly like what I wrote in my post before, being with somebody could just change you to be a better person. It's kinda sad for Kitty & Robert, I had been rooting for them since they first started dating. I hope they'll still be together next season...

Alamak, the summer hiatus is here.... I can't imagine how boring it would be....

room makeover

2009-05-12T11:06:00.003+08:00

i need good bedroom aura.. hence the need of a room makeover....

after contemplating for a long time, i've finally did it!

1) Bought nippon paint - 5 ltr of vinilex (pebble grey)-RM98 + 2 ltr of satin glo (robust red)-RM56 + 7 ltr undercoat - RM40
2) masking tape
3) ready-to-use cement for cracked walls

this is the almost empty bedroom

labor in action

Room before Room after

a plan for my bedroom

i'm soooo loving my bedroom now :) now all i need is a new curtain to match!

the day i turned

2009-05-06T15:55:00.002+08:00

26 years old...

gawd, i do feel o.l.d - tapi like what people say, age is just a number right?

Tapi still, feeling old-ish, I've bought myself new mosturizer/anti-ageing cream also eye cream few months ago...With my low-tolerance to stress and incapability of being patient, i need all the anti-ageing cream i could get! hahahahahha...

well... it's all good so far. i'm on leave today, so gonna be at home and embracing my new age . hehehehehhe...

long weekend

2009-05-01T19:00:00.003+08:00

I have already gotten few tickets to get away from where I am this year. Didn't even check the book for events, talk about gambling, huh... Two in October and another one in August. The October one is special because I bought the ticket to see R got married... Tapi sekalinya when I checked my dept's schedule, it's there, written in red BOLD, one of the most important event of the year.

I doubt I could miss it, so.. most probably I couldn't make it to R's wedding :( sob... sob... But I'm wishing you all the best R... Mmmmmm, ever thought of having the wedding webcast via web-conference?

After talking about it for years, I finally gonna do it. I'm gonna paint one of my bedroom walls RED! This is like hot red! While waiting for them to mix the paint, I was talking about hardwood floors and plastered ceiling. OMG, I never thought I get to this point of talking about house renovation and be taken seriously. Er, which makes me wonder, do I look like Old?

All my energy now is heading towards my bedroom... I need to get all my stuff out of the bedroom, and trust me I've got lotsa stuff... After painting job is done, I want to have my very own reading nook. I still haven't found the right chair yet. Something comfy and warm. Also, I will be looking into my digital pictures library for photos to be framed.

This is very exciting!!!

I'm on leave until wednesday next week, so I'm gonna enjoy my very absence from the office ;)

random post

2009-04-27T11:17:00.005+08:00

One week had passed, I don't know where do I stand... Am I in denial or do I couldn't care less about it? Can people be denial about being in denial? What I know is, changes happen, you can't stop just because things don't happen as you want it to be. I can't be greedy and have it all right? I hope I won't have to go through stage 4, but it's there written in the rulebook. Can I get express boarding to the end of this?

off-day

2009-04-24T12:45:00.002+08:00

I'm on leave today... Gonna go watch "He's not that into you" at gsc, go drink expensive coffee and get distracted for the whole day. It's almost 1pm, and I'm still on my bed... Talk about wallowing big time!

I'm gonna get a hair makeover this weekend... Due to recent event, I'm gonna go for a funkier highlight, red perhaps? Hair salon is like the replacement for an hour sitting in a shrink's office, it's thereauputic and relaxing at the same time...

Communication is the key to a good relationship. Once it's gone, all hell break loose. So, knowing what you expect from another person is as important as waiting for it happen. I mean, how would you get something that you want, if you're not gonna ask for it? When you don't ask questions, how do you get the answers? When you don't expect anything, you've got no point for waiting....

p/s my birthday is in a week time.... I already ask what I want....

cyber-catharsis

2009-04-22T09:30:00.006+08:00

Ever since my training, I hadn't been sleeping well. Well, I sort of drifted early (as early as 10pm), but most nights I would be haunted by vivid dreams, and woken up around 4am in the morning by my dreams... Of course most of time I won't be able to go back to sleep until 6ish in the morning.

Last night, I'd slept early and had the weirdest dream ever (bukan xxx dream tau!). I was in a cafe lining up to buy food, and I surprisingly bumped into someone (who I used to pour my heart out shamelessly.. hehehee) - It's kinda shocking lah juga, since usually when I dreamt of that person, that's when I am in the most troublesome mind ever. It's like my subconscious was taking me where I wanna be - seeking for answer. Then terkejut bangun from sleep at 4 am knowing something had changed. It's been awhile that I get in touch with my instinct/gut-feeling, knowing that I had this dream, I knew something had changed/or will change. And I was right....

But I've got no answers. So temporarily, I'm just gonna bury my head in mountains of paperworks and spend lotttttss of time on bed.

Nothing better than a comfort of ben & jerry's ..

away again

2009-04-09T12:10:00.008+08:00

I am away from home for two weeks... I'm kinda glad this is happening at the right time. I guess I'm one of those people who got itchy staying at one place for too long. Somehow being at different places at different time makes you like that... It's such a fun thing to explore different cities where nobody really knows you. You could never bother sitting alone at a coffee shop alone or watching movies by yourselves. Erk, I don't know whether that was sad or it just says that you're comfortable being alone (not lonely yea). Also, where else can you have some vacation fling kan? Because when you're actually gonna be at one place for a short period of time, and somebody actually asked for your number and you actually give it, I think that only means one thing: vacation-fling! Of course what happened when you're away stays there... on this topic, i'm not gonna elaborate more.. hehehehehe...

I'm bringing Twilight, New Moon for my trip. Since our hotel doesn't have entertainment beside star movies, I can always turn to my book for pleasure. I also toss in Emotional Intelligence book, this one so that I can deal with whatever people behavior out there, as well as for my own personal drama.

In less than month, I'll be adding a +1 to my age, but.... I think I make a lousy adult. I still can't keep up with the pay-the-bills at at the end of every month, I still can't handle office politics, I still can't be as assertive as I want to be at this age, I triple think whatever I want to say in a meeting (so that I won't look stupid) and I still don't know if I can pass for handling personal issues of my own. Heck, I mean I don't even know what emotional maturity means...

Oklah... it's almost end of my training ....

will be writing soon...

Singapore Trip

2009-03-29T19:19:00.007+08:00

Singapore Trip

Last month, out of the blue, Mel called me up and asked me whether I wanna join her to Singapore! Without hesitation, I said yes!!! It's time for the travel buddies to be reunited. Hehehe.... So flight was booked, the vacation started on Friday until Monday... Lucky for me, I got super-cheapo flight ticket from Air Asia (KK-Changi) while Mel flew via JetStar from KLIA.

I got to S'pore at 9pm, and about the same time as Mel arrived at Changi as well...

Second day (Saturday), me and Mel spent the day shopping and exploring the endless shops at Orchard Road... But with our currency at RM2.41 for $1 - erk, I guess shop till you drop is out of question...

Saturday night, went to Clarke Quay where people dine, wine and having a good time ...
On our third day, we went to explore the city... Do what tourists do, bringing huge dslr camera and started snapping...

At Sentosa IslandEr, this is supposed to be an artsy shot ... hehehehe

Sentosa Island - Song of the Sea

Going home.... Garden at Changi Airport... ooh yea, shopping at Changi Airport is heavenly...

No big shopping this time around, I only bought two C&K sandals and my favorite chocolate, Lindt (this satisfied my craving)....

Good trip, good company for good time...

Until next trip okay?

i'm back

2009-03-24T11:48:00.003+08:00

Just got back from a wonderful Singapore trip... I so deserved that vacation, of course... after days of working late and working on weekends??

Anyway, pictures and updates coming up soon... Now I gotta relax my aching feet from too much walking...

packing list

2009-03-11T22:15:00.004+08:00

I hope this year is gonna be a year full of travel... More often, I sometimes bring more than necessary... So hopefully after years of experience, maybe I'm a better 'packer' now... But we're women, what do you expect? We need one shoes for each pair of dress ;) I remember when I travel during the first year, I was travelling with only backpack (no choice because we were travelling by train at that time). But after that when we had to travel to a different place by car, me and my girlfriend brought lotsa of other stuff, and this includes 3 pair of shoes for just 4 days of travel . Hehehehehe...

So.... here are my packing list for future reference :)
1. Identification (IC/Passport)
2. Ticket (as well as ticket number written someplace else in case I lost my printed ticket
3. Toiletries (travel size of course) & Makeup (only bring powder, concealer & blusher- the others just leave it at home)
4. Tops & Pants (something that I can mix n match)
5. Pyjamas ( the lightest possible)
6. Towel ( the thinnest possible)
7. Handphone & Charger
8. Camera & Camera charger
9. A book to read while waiting for flight
10. Notebook & a pen in case I get inspired (wahahahah)

I know some people make fun of me with my list (esp when travelling for a day, people would wonder what's the list for?).... See, usually I would make my list earlier, maybe a day or two days earlier than my flight, so the night before, I just toss every item in my list into the bag. Trust me, it saves hell lotsa time. Oh yeah, I also can spend the extra hour thinking what baju to toss in the bag ;)

Happy Packing!

***pssst, I'm already writing down my singapore trip list.... obsessed much?

my fatal flaw

2009-03-04T22:52:00.003+08:00

I enjoy watching tv shows since I was in college... Drama is addictive but personal drama isn't... Believe it or not, there are shows that I haven't stop watching since college, and college is long time ago. Now, one of my favorites is Brothers & Sisters. I love it! The scripts (even though some are a bit melodramatic, tapi still good screenwriting) as well as the actors/actresses...In fact, last Sunday's episode is one of the best for me. I will review the episode probably soon...

Anyway, here's one of Everwood quote......

My Fatal Flaw, by Ephram Brown (Everwood)

"The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse.

So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.

When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do.

But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again. "

how to deal with negative people

2009-02-25T22:17:00.004+08:00

This type of species is everywhere....

But now, I'm gonna use this tips on myself... Balik from holiday terus stress + overwhelmed... I better find solutions before I go off attacking innocent civilians out there!

Oh yeah, I already stick my Singapore Itinerary on my cubicle wall so that I have something happy to think of.

- I bought few mineral makeup from lovingminerals - I'm in love with mineral makeup! I think it's much more natural than regular makeup, plus it's less cakey/pasty-looking. I bought Lumiere finishing powder, everyday mineral's blush as well as the kabuki blush. Since I don't go to shops that much anymore, all shopping is done at the comfort of my bed. How convenient...

- Last week I had supper at grace point. Went to Claypot to order Ginger Beef... After paying RM6.50/RM7.00 for the food, 15 minutes later this is what I got....

Few ketuls of beef,

and.... a full bowl of onions!

OMG Memanglah not worth it..... So- don't go to claypot in grace point. I don't mind paying more for good food, tapi this, sudahlah mahal, it doesn't even taste good....

- Went to Focus Point 1Borneo to make lenses for my glasses. After talking to the salespeople, somehow I terbeli the transition lenses. After picking it up, I realize that the lenses are not high index, it was actually the same standard as NORMAL lenses, index 1.50---- I blamed it on the sales people.... I feel soooo ripped off. After talking and discussing, I already mentioned that I would prefer high indexed lenses yang sangatlah nipis. Now I feel like throwing the glasses in the garbage!!!! And after spending hundredddsss on it, I feel sooo wasted... I mean, money doesn't fall from the sky okaaaY! This is totally pissing me off! The sales people are not experienced, they probably would prefer people buying expensive stuff rather than giving people choices of what's best! STUPID!

- It costs me rm400 to fix/paint my car! Honestly, I wouldn't even mind driving a car with a minor scratch as long it gets me from point A to point B. Tapi to avoid nagging and hours of lectures, I'd rather pay the extra 100 to avoid all those.... Why can't people think like Randy Pausch when his wife wrecked his car? I mean rather than lecturing one on how to be a safe driver, why can't they think "bad things happen to good people too". (hehehehhe)

This is from here.
"Nobody likes a negative person. Listening to complaints from someone with a pessimistic, mud-slinging, doom and gloom attitude can drain your energy, push your patience to the limit, and impact your mental and physical health."

So solutions:-
- don't get it get to you.... The only difference of a grave and a rut is how deep it is...
- find solutions.
- don't bother to stay after 5pm when you don't even get paid OT. What's the point right?

and finallllllyyy... Chillleex..... go chill someplace nice and have nice cuppa hot chocolate....

update

2009-02-23T23:15:00.003+08:00

I am on leave today... Oh my, how I miss waking up late. I know some people who get up early even on weekends, but I'm sooo not one of them. It's such a cozy feeling staying in bed until 10am (that's not late ok). After that, I babysat the kids at home, OMG, penatnyaaaa... I burned all the calories I had from DoubleCheeseBurger.

For those men out there, women do keep scores. Men who think they got 10 points from ONE expensive gift, they got it wrong. This is how women keep score, gift 1 point, card 1 point, breakfast in bed 1 point, surprise message in our jacket pocket 1 point... Oh yea, don't forget we deduct marks too - so please be nice to your ladies so that you'll look good in our books.

BIM 2009 is coming up in October. So, do join me for half marathon. This time, I plan to train properly... Itupun see-lah if work is letting me out early (how to train when leave office at 7pm?). I think joining this is certainly a good motivation to get moving and keep an active lifestyle.

Anyway, congratulations to my 2240 housemate, R (ala GG pulak), on her engagement recently :) I'm expecting a save the date card early...

getaway

2009-02-19T13:19:00.005+08:00

Sorry I had been m.i.a for awhile. Nothing much had been going on, just had been occupied with work which is draining me like crazy!~

Although I am excited to say I am going to have a getaway with my long lost travel buddy, Mel to Singapore next month! You know what's the beauty of going oversea- office can call you, but you have the perfect excuse to not pick up. Roaming charges are very expensive okay? Plus, it's a good way to get away from the mundan-ess of daily things. I always need a good getaway to recharge.

It's at that time of the month and added with the mounting of stress- I am as hell frustrated and moody. So... here are notes for future references:

1) Have a clear expectations of myself and other people, and make sure the other person is clear about it. This includes personal and professional issues okay?
2) A good plan can save you plenty of time and energy later
3) Make a note to other people to not annoy/irritate me with annoying remarks or questions when I'm moody (this is esp for guys. Why they do not get the sign that we obviously not interested to be chatty?)

Okay.. gotta go!

dbkk TH

2009-02-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Me and Josie are looking for team members for dbkk treasure hunt which will be held on 22 February. Because of I'm being "last-minute" this time - most teams are already constructed or people already have obligations... We probably would need someone who can drive- I definitely cannot be driving (can't think and drive at the same time-hazardous!)...

Info can be find here ....

This is the info from last year's...

So, who wanna join our winning team? Heheheheh....

v-day

2009-02-13T11:44:00.004+08:00

The supposedly daily-updated blog has become the twice-a-month updated...

Anyway....

Here is tisha on her 2nd birthday. She cried because of the loud pop! So kesian... She got a barbie cake- tapi this time the cake wasn't that kembang (bantat eh?)

Baby Farish Hilman, a new addition to the big family! This was him two months ago-such a smallie-
This is after one month and half months... See how fast he's grown! The last picture just say it all... Stress... Bad (horrible) traffic... Sleep deprivation... just lead to this!

Oh yea- after the minor accident, I find justification to get days off. Eventhough, I won't be celebrating V-day (as usual-working), I am still rooting cheap fares to go somewhere.

The only time I can get off-days is when I get away and have flights booked!

So any interesting travel plans?

update

2009-01-31T00:00:00.004+08:00

I'm still here!!!

Sorry for the long hiatus... I had been 'kinda' busy at work - does that 'kinda busy' means that I'm not delegating and prioritizing enough? The truth is I had been spending more and more time at work lately. More always means spending 11 to 12 hours at work and Saturday is spent at work. Not only I don't allow myself off-day on Sat, I also ask staff from the office to come on Saturday. Yes, I can practically admit that I basically don't have a life :/ (as well as depriving other people their lives!)

Despite my whining, there's one thing that I feel comfortable with work, it's so tangible and comprehendible. Although with the mountainous paperwork on my desk, I feel like they're beyond my control unlike other things in life.

Oh yeaa, I just realized that we have reached end of January. So what's the progress with your new year's resolutions? Erkkk, I've forgotten some of my resolutions. I remember one of them is spending less time at work and finally get a social life. That one is certainly not going well, but I'm not so worried, I'm a late bloomer anyway.. Hahahaha...

Talking about late bloomer, I feel like I'm so stuck in the middle of teenage-hood. I always imagine when I'm 25/going to-26, I'll be that calm lady who already figured things out, including an expert in juggling work, family, friends and relationship. Certainly not someone who's still struggling with hormonal changes before that time of the month and also fickling with decisions daily. I somehow think all of these are associated with the middle child syndrome! (It's always easy to blame on something else rather than yourself kan?)

Eh, enough drama-talk. I'll continue with more updates tomorrow. Tisha's 2nd birthday, new nephew (yg milkaholic) as well as upcoming off days!

16 random things

2009-01-01T13:24:00.003+08:00

Aik, I think last time it was only 8 random things, now it has gone to 16... I hope the next time it won't be 24... heheheheh

So here it is 16 random things about me tagged by Lana.

1. I sleep with the lights ON every NIGHT. Nope, I'm not scared of the dark... not at all, but I get restless with the lights off(I mean what can you do with the lights off just alone with your thoughts?) So, usually I read until I doze off every night. When I was small, dad was kind enough to check on me and switch off the light, now... the light is on until I wake up in the morning.

2. I have a thing for Lists! My organizer is soooo FULL with lists. List bills to pay lah... things to do... books to read... things i paid... Not that I rigidly follow my to-do-list but it helps me to be a lil more organized.

3. I have changed job (careerwise still in the same industry) 3 times since graduating.

4. I skipped primary 5 - hopping to primary 6 when I was in Primary School. So, in high school, I was a year younger than the rest of my classmates.

5. Despite my fear of public speaking, I was forced to be MC for an annual dinner during my first job. And heck I was supernervous - I think I got stage fright! But lucky me, I didn't trip on the stage (despite my long dress) or stumble on words.

6. Back in high school-my ambition was to be an accountant. Siap mintak tukar major to accountancy from JPA when I was offered to do IT.

7. I'm more of follow-your-head than follow-your-heart kinda person. Tapi at times hormones do intervene... Reality and practicality rules!

8. Same with Rozanna, I don't really watch TV anymore. Now, I just watched downloaded shows (A LOT!).

9. A tad perfectionista - in certain things onlylah... If I want to do a certain things well and done in time- then I would do it. Once upon a time, I used to sort my clothes according to colors, erk how obsessive is that (or maybe I had too much time in my hand!)?

10. I can be compulsive at times - I recheck my car/house whether it's locked a few times. Sometimes I would go through the extra hassle of going back to the car even when I already reached the office door (shopping mall's door).

11. I realized I was shortsighted in high school-tapi despise glasses. So started pakai contacts when in UiTM until now.

12. Think more of practicality of the things I bought now. Back when I was a student, mmg shoppacraze lah-the temptations to shop were everywhere- online shopping, crossgates, factory outlets... Now, buying clothes/handbags/shoes makes me think gazillion times, tapi spending money on good mosturizer, new bowling ball ok pulak.

13. I have a horrible habit of eating junk food while driving home - mostly when driving to parents home!

14. As a typical Taurus-ian, I am stubbbooornn as hell. If I want something then I'll damn make sure I'll get it!

15. When asked where I'm from, I always say from Papar but I grew up in few places, spent primary school years in Keningau and high school in KK. So, when asked about things/people from Papar, I have no idea. Is there any correct answer for that question? Does it mean, where you grew up? Or where did you spend your childhood?

16. I still can't believe I am 25 years old and to be 26 years old this year!

I'm gonna end this tag here, but feel free to do this tag if you want ;)

Happy New Year!

i miss ...

2008-12-28T11:16:00.002+08:00

Twilight show on the Big Screen! I have been putting off watching Twilight since it came out. The excuse, wanted to finish the book first. After I did, then came Big Family Obligations, then work obligations yg kept me working past 7pm... After that, I was sooo tired that all I wanted to do is hit the bed.

But now..... it doesn't show in ANY Cinemas in KK anymore! Sob... Sob... Sob...

I guess I have to wait for the DVD Version to come out. But it's soooo different isn't it? There's no fancy effect of the vampires playing baseball and other thrill effect that you feel in the cinema...

So... moral of the story is: When given the chance to do something that you want, you have to grab it while you still can, because it may never come back in the future.*

*It's ok to be selfish while you still can
**Lucky me, there's a RM8 DVD!

oh end of the year....

2008-12-26T11:29:00.002+08:00

After a long hiatus... I'm back to writing again...

Not so many things happened yet there are many things to be done...

I was away two times last week for work. Lucky me I got to be meet the RPIans on my very short trips. Of course one of them included a dine n bowl at Cineleisure. Oklah we weren't that great, but it's the company that counts right? Thanks Mel, Rozanna and Arep for a great time. Next time we rematch ? Lana and Sha, we meet another time yea?

I was at first excited the thought of jet-settings... But the truth is... It's quite exhausting. Not to mention time-consuming.. I mean the 5 hours spent at the airport (and in the airplane) could've meant crossing off 5 things in my to-do-list. Okay, that is if I were productive.

My flight going back to KK was quite a nightmarish. It was an airbus flight to Korea but with a transit to KK. Next to me was a guy who annnooooyed me to hell. Usually in the flight, I don't fancy chatting unless if that someone is somebody I know, exciting or extremelyyy cute (hahaha!). So, my trick is usually just plug in the earphone, shut my eyes, or read a book. Those are the absolute signs I gave to people to NOT DISTURB me. So, while I was gonna close my eyes, he started chatting. Chat about his work, his girlfriend, his problem with his girlfriend, and asked me to not sleep first before he goes to sleep. I mean, HELLLOOO? I have my own problem to think of!!! So, to make it clear, I gave the one-syllable answer to his questions-either hmmmm, yes or no... To avoid the conversations, I shut my eyes immediately after makan! Heheheheh...

Gonna continue later...

moldy cheese

2008-12-09T10:23:00.002+08:00

I'm bored... In fact, I'm easily bored...

I need new cheese...

my cheese is molding...

(untitled)

2008-12-05T11:59:00.004+08:00

It rained yesterday evening so I didn't get to jog :(

I needed to get my blood flow moving, and that was exactly what I did last Tuesday... I hope the wide-spread myth about regular-donors will gain weight is not true...

update:
"Hi! No, I don't believe that donating blood contributes to weight loss or weight gain. It does, however, cause your heart to replenish the lost blood with a fresh new supply which can be healthy in exercising your heart and giving your body a fresh new supply of blood to work with, which I'm told is healthy for you. Donating blood won't help you to lose weight, but it won't make you gain any, either and can help contribute to a healthier body in at least a minor way."

from here

I am in the pms-mood ever... I feel like chewing everybody's head off!!!

i need a loooooong run...

2008-12-04T09:20:00.003+08:00

And those who know me might know what this means...

kiss and run...

2008-11-29T11:03:00.003+08:00

from cartoonstock....

on (young) adulthood

2008-11-27T12:12:00.003+08:00

I can't believe how fast time flies! I don't even realize it's been almost THREE years since I started working. Back when being a student, I can't wait to end the all-nighters crazy with assignments and exams. Right now, I can say that time was one the best time in my life. Cheh, dulu bestlah, thinking to start working , earning own money n get to spend on whatever you want (kononnyalah). But now, with the paycheck credited in the account mostly going out to expenses, bills and other responsibilities (sampai want to buy SKII pun fikir 20 million times)

I don't even go to shop much lately... Because I only droool on gadgets!!! Tops, jeans, shoes and bags are mostly out of the drool list because I only shop mostly when I go on trip - either KL or wherever. Despite how drooling the shoes in Charles & Keith- Yes, we have Charles&Keith in KK even before KL has it, tapi... just looking at the pointy 4 inch stiletto, I can feel how it's gonna kill my feet. I take the stairs mostly in the office because I think the elevator is too slow, so there's no way I'm taking the stairs with that stilleto or else I'll be at risk falling down the stairs and break some parts of my body, not to mention the unbearable embarassment. So don't care lah that I'm wearing flats when I'm around in the office, and the girls know this, we all have our flat slipper and '3 inch meeting shoes' which is the shoes we wear to meeting or out etc... But we can't deny how sexy we feels wearing those heels kan girls? Herda wrote about the price of wearing heels here.

On day-to-day: I have to keep myself busy or else I'll be fidgety n crazy. This is a typical taurus-ian. With this lifestyle and the stubborn-headed like mine, I might have to learn to love cats to be my companions when I'm forty. Suddenly I was reminded by a paper that we had to write in UiTM, it was on ideal man/woman and we had to do peer reviews. That time I was the peer for Aneem, and she wrote exactly the description of Wanzaw... Okay, maybe bukan exactlylah (can't remember pun the exact things), tapi mostly he fits perfectly in her ideal man. I mean how lucky is she?

Okay, I gotta dig in my old boxes and find that paper of mine!

Have a pleasant day everyone..

insomnia

2008-11-24T23:16:00.004+08:00

Eh, do they actually call it insomnia when it's still early? For whatever reasons, I think the caffeine I consumed this morning is still in my bloodstream, so I'm kinda on the edge even by midnight.

I just finished up my things-to-do list for tomorrow (obsessed!!!).ERK, this live by list thing sometimes drives me insane, but without them macam lost pulak. I just went through my 2007 organizers, GaWd, didn't I write about everything! Tapi yang funny is... macam every month got this line "Start jogging"... Talk about unresolved resolutions (coz this year also got that line every month). Thankfully I didn't find any "eat only 1000 calories today", or I would've said I was a lil 'not right' last year.

Anyway, sports day was officially over yesterday, I only joined two events- a run and bowling. Don't mistaken me as a fit person just coz I finish half marathon, I wasn't really!!! I was gasping for air the last 200 meters of the run and almost seeing stars! Bowling though we didn't win, we did better than the practice, so it was all good. Maybe with proper training, we could reach the 150 scores (nothing wrong with hoping, right?).

I'm thinking to start running again after taking a break since last month, but running alone, alaaaa so boring... I need to hear some hot and steamy gossips to get my heart rate up! Hahahahha, that's what girlfriends are for... Rather than like guys who look so serious while jogging, and doing that phew-phew breathe-thing, we girls do it the fun way...

Oh yea! Times is having Books Warehouse Sale @ Asia City Complex until December 5th... I went to have a look-see on Saturday but didn't get to browse all the sections- SO MANY BOOKS! Will go and check it out again this week. Newer books are having 30% discount, while older ones you can get for RM10-RM15. Truth is, I get tired easily by reading some heavy novels (eg Margaret Atwood, Jeffrey Eugenides etc) meaning too complicated prose and vocabs. So mission is to find some light chick flick that can easily be finished in 2 hours and without dictionary in my other hand :)

4 more working days....

sports etc

2008-11-19T23:50:00.005+08:00

So, staff sports day thingy is coming up... I'm trying out for bowling and also track.. hahahah.. sangat lousssy in bowling okaaaaay...

About one and a half year ago, ex-company was having bowling competition among staff, and I thought back then I wasn't suck, in fact I thought our group rocked (kan neth?? kan ulai??).. Hahahahha, perasan sendirilah this... But back then, we somehow got the rhythm right, now my ball always goes "ketaaaak-takkkk" (like I was basically slamming/throwing the ball on the lane, instead of doing the slow release/pushing way)...

Picture taken- we were the girls in pink ;)

Dulu rajinlah play, watched youtube on bowling tips, read bowling articles, and also played bowling computer game (at work... opsss).

Now to think about it... There's like gazillion of stuff to think about before throwing the ball, like how you hold your ball, thumb is facing which way (is it 12 o'clock or 9 o'clock?), the 4/5 steps before release, your hand, the arrows, your feet on the dots... Yikes! I can go insane with the details... Overthinking is justttt baddd...

I have plenty of things in my to-do-list before end of the week
1) Wash my car and ~~fill air in tyre (280!)~~
2) ~~Use up my massage voucher (yg expired tomorrow!).~~ btw, helen beauty reflex in Centre Point is having buy 1 free 1 promotion for massage etc...
3) Spring Clean Room No.1 and No.2
4) Burn TV Shows on DVDs
5) Finish workplace's to-do-lists (yg never-ending tu!!!)

Allright.. at least I get blog crossed off my list!

DTR

2008-11-16T23:38:00.003+08:00

That's the Defining The Relationship talk... I suddenly wonder why do we need this? Usually it's women who wanted to bring this up, and most of the time it's men who would avoid this conversation.

But now... in the era of "just-talking", "just-dating", "together but unofficial", "together but not serious" are totally different things- who wouldn't get confused, right? I somehow think in the beginning of a relationship, things are much simpler. Those are the times when getting to know each other, how every phone call is exciting and every day is such a mystery. But as time move on, when things are predictable and so stagnant, you begin to wonder as where's the relationship is going?

Okay, maybe this post is inspired after watching SATC episode for the x-th time... But relationship needs re-evaluations. Whether friendship or love. The best-est friends who you used to pour you heart out in high school might be someone who you feel awkward to now... Maybe it's human nature to know that two people are on the same page with what the future holds. Whatever it is... if it has to do something with your future, you must ask the question!

baby quilt

2008-11-16T23:22:00.004+08:00

Few months ago, I bought this super-cute fabric from JKT for my expecting sister. It was abandoned in other tonnes of fabric. I kept imagining how cute it would be as baby bumper or baby quilt... My mom wanted to send it to the tailor, but I suddenly said.... sewing it won't be sooo hard, right? (Grrrr, this lady can't say no!) So I had to use my mom's sewing machine to get this Baby Quilt done... No patchwork because malas and don't know how... So I just sew blue border around the centre fabric.. This one is done based on my common sense and after watching some tutorial on youtube... So, everything main hentam only but surprisingly the finished product turned out better than I expected... So thanks to my assistant (sis) who helped me pinned, ironed and cut the fabric.

This is halfway into the project..

Voila, the finished product!

Up-close...Up-close 2

I think this would be my last (artsy-fartsy) project of 2008!

routine

2008-11-10T23:04:00.004+08:00

I don't know whether i fancy routine or not... i still have love and hate relationship with it! i mean, i love how the paycheck is there at the end of month (who doesn't?), but the rest that comes with it, at times can be hmmmm agonizing?

(please bear the whining...)

This morning I spent 1 hour and 35 minutes to get to work, it was the usual crazy monday traffic. I bet if I had spent half of the time I spend on the road on the track, I would be sooo slim and slender right now. But I still got some flab on some parts, so you betcha I had spent my time driving... This can be totally my fault, I could've avoid the jammed area if I just wake up 1 hour early (but to wake up at 5am? I don't even wake up that early when I was in high school!)... You think 5 is early, I have friends who wake up at 4.30-ish on workdays!

On the note of routine, I'd just volunteered myself to join the selection for a workplace sports day! Gulp, me? Sports? Hahahahah... That's like a lousy combination of all! Okay, here's the picture: in high school, my role during sports day was stapling ribbon on marching girls' and guys' hand! So, what exactly was I doing on the track field? I guess it was just one of my effort to be hmmm more active and out-of-the-rut... Well, maybe this could be one of my phase...

I still have few unread books... I still have many (pretty) fabrics for some artsy-fartsy project... I got collection of papers, fancy whole punch, ribbons for my artsy-fartsy papercraft. Kilometer buildup schedule for marathon training. Coupon for a body massage (that I am supposed to use before 20 nov).

I know the list is a bit boring... Nope, I don't have list of fancy clubs/restaurants to go to (sy sangat boring okaay!)...

But I yearn more.. I don't know whether it's a good quality or not... I mean, to want more is supposedly good right? To dream makes you want to work hard and be more determined and persistant right? Isn't that what parents are telling us all along? Aim for the moon and you may land on the stars? So, it's okay to dream for some handsome prince to sweeep off my feet? To dream to travel the world and living a rich (and i don't mean money only) life...

Yada... Yada... Yada... I think if I'm paying off a therapist to listen to me, he would be living rich of my talking!

Well, i guess you have to bear with the lady w the big 'P'

*** Preliminary date for 2nd BIM is on October 11th 2009... The amount raised for the 1st BIM was RM33,000... So, care to join me running next year? Josie jommmm.....

jobs oh jobs

2008-11-10T09:14:00.004+08:00

Few weeks ago, I met with an old friend (ohh yes, I'm old, thus having the 'old' friends status)...

So, she just finished her study, and in the midst of starting new job... She asked me the question, how does it like starting a job... Then, I immediately said ooh it's okay, it's surely gonna be easy...

But, thinking back, it wasn't thaaat easy... I mean, I've changed 3 jobs, and they're all different in a way... They all have their own challenges, and I must say they're not that easy...

There are all sort of challenges... For one, it could be how to stay sane in the midst of crazy work schedule... How to balance your life in the middle of projects that require you to stayback past midnight. How to deal with (protective) parents who called (at 10pm) asking whether you already got home when you were still in the office. How to deal with annoying colleagues. How to stay professional and at the same time be approachable. Or it could be ...how to be productive when everyone else is slow. How to be push people to act fast. How to deal with indecisive people. How to deal with bureaucracy. How to delegate.. How to be firm yet nice at the same time...and the list goes on foreverrrr... For one, they all require some people skills... With that, I must say, people skills go a loooong way than that 4.0 gpa.

And all I want to do now.. is sleep in on my comfy bed at home and reading a good book....

reading nook

2008-11-07T10:26:00.003+08:00

Above was my latest purchase from Tong Hing Supermarket... Those who are book-craze, there's 50% sale going on ALL BOOKS at Tong Hing in KK (near HSBC)... I got these four books for half price.. Oklah, they're not in the current bestseller list... But I love my books despite how old they are! Also, the bottom one, the great american road trip, is a photobook of all places in the States... I'm thinking to start my own my Great Sabah Road Trip... because it's not the destination that count, it's the journey...

I want a reading nook! This one is perfeeeect!Variations of reading nook

But I love this the most!

wedding frenzy

2008-11-04T11:44:00.007+08:00

It's November and in a month time, it'll be month of weddings... In fact, next month my cousin is getting engaged...

I always thought people who walk into marriage are brave souls. I mean, the thought of willing to take HUGE step of uniting two lives together are hard (and not everybody can do it), and to commit to one another is just simply amazing! In Malaysia, it's even more.. Because there's a saying say you married a man/woman, then you married with the whole family.

I for one - love weddings (marriage itself just simply scary!)...

How about this eternity ring as the engagement ring?

Or this bling as the wedding ring?

and OMG how about these elegant and beautiful vera wang wedding dresses?

and that final piece of Vera Wang Luxe Callalily is just so flowy...

okay.. gotta go back to real life now and start thinking of answers to give if I ever get "the question".. How about, "I'll wait until somebody can buy me one of vera wang dresses." I wonder if that'll be sufficient and they'll be scratching their head thinking who the hell is vera wang...

ambivalent

2008-11-01T22:11:00.003+08:00

You know what's worse than feeling strongly about something... that's feeling ambivalent...

from mw:

1: simultaneous and contradictory attitudes or feelings (as attraction and repulsion) toward an object, person, or action
2 a: continual fluctuation (as between one thing and its opposite) b: uncertainty as to which approach to follow

it's like being in a limbo... You can't just feel something, and do the opposite thing. In the above case, if you're feeling ambivalent about something, how can you be consistent in your action?

The conclusion is.... If there's nothing on the table, just make attempt to put something there for yourself, rather than waiting...

butts-out

2008-10-30T09:01:00.003+08:00

When I posted this entry awhile ago... somebody argued that cigarette butts are bio-degradable....

I found out that they're not, well... they are degradable but it will take decadess... So, it's no surprise you can see them practically anywhere...

"It is estimated that several trillion cigarette butts are littered worldwide every year. That's billions of cigarettes flicked, one at a time, on our sidewalks, beaches, nature trails, gardens, and other public places every single day. In fact, cigarettes are the most littered item in America and the world. Cigarette filters are made of cellulose acetate tow, NOT COTTON, and they can take decades to degrade. Not only does cigarette litter ruin even the most picturesque setting, but the toxic residue in cigarette filters is damaging to the environment, and littered butts cause numerous fires every year, some of them fatal."

from http://www.cigarettelitter.org/

pink ribbon tag

2008-10-29T08:41:00.004+08:00

I was tagged by kim and herda .....

I had my first comprehensive medical check-up 2 years ago which consisted of full physical exam, x-ray, urine test, and also blood test... But lucky me, I didn't have to go through scary pap-smear test... Although my test did include between-neck-and-belly-button examination.. Awkward!!! But oklah... I was shown the proper way to do self-examination which is really important, and was reminded to do monthly ( i don't, coz always forget!!!!)

Its Breast Cancer Awareness Month so I would also like to show my support for this campaign here.

The rules to place this logo are pretty much simple. All you have to do is:

1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who shared it with you.
3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4. Add links to these blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blog.

pls pass this tag to support breast cancer awareness!

Pure Relaxation

2008-10-25T15:04:00.003+08:00

Yesterday evening, it was raining super heavily... So me and sis decided to get some pure relaxation by getting massage before heading home...

Off we go to Helen Beauty Reflex... Good thing they had 11th year anniversary 'Buy 1 Free 1' Promotion. So.. I bought the RM60 aroma body massage (45 minutes), and I get another session for free which I have to use in a month.

I loved the smell of aromatherapy oil being used on me... I loved the pressure from the masseause... The masseause was this small lady, but her hand so kuat... I was screaming in pain when I said I wanted strong pressuree.. Cheh, konon-konon like I've been working hard....

I think this experience was much better than my last one...

My last massage (Scrub/Milk Bath/Massage) was during a trip in bandung, it was not good at all. Basically before the massage, the masseause asked me to strip everything, and the weird part was when she asked "do you want to buy our disposable underwe@r or n@ked?" Erkkkk, N@KED??? on a massage table??? N@ked on table and lying there like a fish??? Nooooo.... So I ended up buying their dispo underwear... But basically they don't cover you up like they practice here... Basically in 1 hour of lulur/massage, I pretty much feel very exposed...

So lesson learned: Go to reputable place, where the light is dim and you get to hold on to your own underwe@r. hahahahah...

So far I've had good experience in these places in KK: Cres Moment, Helen Beauty Reflex...

BIM picture

2008-10-23T10:45:00.005+08:00

I've found my picture from photographers of BIM....

This one is courtesy of Disney of http://kangkudo.gombui.net/

This shot was taken during km17 --- note the vein on my forehead (I was on my way turning into hulk but of course still camwhoring, hahahha)

I'm canceling my run next monday... alasan: malas!

Also, I plan to get up early every saturday to go run with my niece, the longest she ran was 5 rounds (2km), such a stamina!!!

Let's see how long this phase will be here to stay...

dream oh dream....

2008-10-20T12:00:00.006+08:00

dream oh dream....

I'm thinking of 2009 travel plan:-
1. Jkt/Bdg trip in February ( business trip)
2. KL trip (jalan-jalan, shopping, meet friends)
3. Penang trip (jalan-jalan, meet friends, and maybe finish penang international bridge Half marathon)
4. sandakan trip (see mel and maybe finish sepilok half marathon and eat lotssaaaa seafood)

i wanna go everywhere... but then again, money issues... sob.. sob.. sob... borneotrekker said, solution is find a man who is rich (note, the dollar sign on the eyes!!!), loves outdoor/travel and super-generous. But we can't expect men nowadaysss, can we? They probably would want to spend that money on gadget like 40 inch plasma tv, all types of console, gps, laptop, iphone and all sort of other gadgets.... So, work hard, earn it, and goooo travel all you can, because only then it's going to be worth it!

**i'm not exactly crazy about running marathon/half marathon... but since my friends are in penang/sandakan, so maybe I'll take the chance to do both, socializing and running at the same time... but I heard food in Penang is sooo good, I'll be too heavy too run then :(

I am currently reading this, The Gift of Travel, a book I borrowed from the library

1st half marathon experience

2008-10-13T12:28:00.009+08:00

I am not exactly an athlete nor active person... My high school experience: never really into sports, and the 4.30-5.30pm "waktu sukan" was my lepaking time at the canteen... hehehehe.. . By looking at the list of tv shows I watch now, you can simply decide that I am actually a couch potato... except I watch my shows on my bed... make a bed potato then...

So, it's actually quite a shock for me/others when I decided to join the 1st Borneo International Marathon in the half marathon category. It was actually Borneotrekker who was playing with my head sometime in May, like joining half marathon is easy... But we've decided to sign up anyway just to get early bird special price, RM40...

Funny eh, when we signed up and introduced ourselves to the BIM organizer, we said..."oh, we're not joining marathon, half ONLY".... Eeeee, like half marathon is 100 metres race....

So, ulai and I signed up in May... My training seriously was inconsistent... Due to work commitments, there were weeks when I was working late, and I could not squeeze in training in between... There were weekends when I went home to parents home, where I had to babysit in the evening. Also, there were days when the weather was great but I was just simply lazy or use the excuse tired!

Running places: so far I ran at ums track field (4oomtr/round), around likas lake (~1km/round), and ums area (once, coz people were honking me, and I HATE that)... I think can have many potential running areas, eg. the new waterfront place in likas or alam mesra largest (private) park?

Frequency of training: 2-3 times a week when I'm rajin... 0 times a week when I'm lazy... But due to ramadhan month, i just simply too tired to jog/walk, so I only squeezed in two weeks training in ramadhan. I think it would probably help if I had a regular training routine before ramadhan month, then probably running while fasting is not gonna be so bad... Most of the time I ran in the evening, because I wouldn't want to sacrifice my beauty sleep for 1km of run...

The days before were quite nerve-wrecking, the thought of running TWENTY-ONE KILOMETRES seems so SCARY. Trust me, this is where preparations helps. The longest I ran in training was 9 kms and I never had long run in the morning... But when you're prepared, it's not going to be so bad... So it's quite scary to think of the unexpected... Worse, the big P came at this time! Yikes, goodbye energy, hellooooo cramps, mood swings and backache (i still don't get why i get backache/thigh ache around that time of the month)

free running vestchip all tied up on my shoe

The night before:
Pasta party.... the food was okay. There were many runners who look very athletic I tell you. They were from many countries, also kennysia and catwoman from singapore were there at the pasta party as well. I tried not to eat too much because I was afraid my stomach would be digesting too much while I sleep. Even though initially I planned to sleep around8.30-9.00pm, I only fall asleep at 10.45pm... So much for the excitement!

The morning:
I was awakened by a good luck wish at 2ish in the morning, and could't sleep after that. So while waiting until 4am, I watched my show on my bed to relax... Hehehehh... 4am- hot shower, breakfast and water, water and more water in between...

before the run: photo credit to http://81lions.blogspot.com

I got to the stadium around 5ish in the morning, and the others were already there. Saw sabah's own iron-lady fiona lim, kennysia, a lady who ran in catwoman costume, and also another lady with orange wig+tutu skirt... It certainly makes this run more fun and colorful isn't it? I went straight to warm up and stretch... Around 5.45 am, the runners for half marathon were asked to lined up at the starting line, as usual the slowest would be at the back, and the real athletes at the front... No need to ask me where was I, of course among the last ones...

The siren starting... the runners started running.. I for one, trying to control my pace, I wouldn't want to go so fast in the beginning and go pancit at the end... So slow pace for me, even though surely I was among the last ones... The first hour was pretty much okay, it wasn't too hot and slightly breezy, so running surely was easier... It wasn't long when I reached Jesselton Point, the 4km mark... I was still doing ok.... and still tried to mantain my pace....

So... next we went and passed the central market, wawasan plaza and headed to sutera harbor... by that time, the sun was out, I started to feel the heat, OMG, it was hotttt, I was sweating like crazy.... This was the time when sponging helps. There were few stations where they provided sponges soaked with ice-cold water... In that heat, it such a pleaaaaasssurree to sponge everywhere, from face, to neck, head, hand, body... basically everywhere where I needed refreshments...

Runners had to go into sutera harbor to pass the 10km marker which is basically halfway into the race... I decided to take my power gel there assuming BIM was gonna provide power-gel for the half marathon runners. But I was wrong, the power gels were only for the full marathon... Suddenly menyesal pulak to take the powergel so early in the race, if only I've known I would've brought two so that I can use another one at the end of the run. Starting from the 15km mark, I started to feel tired... I feel like I was weighing 100 kilos... My pace was slower, but I tried to run anyway... It was hoootttttt..... The toughest run was from km 17 to km 21, because the running path wasn't shaded and I can't tahan the heatttt.... and my feet was starting to feel heavy... I did walk a bit on my km 18 km to km19.5... But once I saw the stadium, I knew the finish line was there.... so I ran as I can... trying to remember the feelings... The feelings finishing up at the end of 21 km run... If this would be my last half marathon, at least I want to remember that excitement, the joy of finishing...

So..... I ran... I crossed the finished line in 3 hours and 16 minutes and got myself my FIRST ever finishing half marathon medal... At least 1) I didn't faint 2) I didn't quit half way even tho I wanted to 3) No significant injury (legs cramp) on the way and finally the most important one 1 FINISH!

me and herman showing off our medals

me and ms borneotrekker (erk, sunburn faces?)

Trust me, it truly is a mind over body thing... God, I used up all the motivation lines out there... From "you know you can do this uji" to "you can do this as long as you set your mind to it" to "don't give up now" to "your body can do more than what you think" to "you only fail when you don't try" bla bla bla... Now, I'm a certified motivational speaker. Hahahahha...

Had a free leg massage afterwards... That felt soooo gooooood... I rewarded myself with coffee bean carrot cake... and short nap in the afternoon... I woke up around 1ish pm, and started to feel nauseated... Like I-need-to-vomit-now nausea... I tried eating bread, and sipping gatorade but no luck because after that I vomited everything out (ewwwwww)... I think that was like the marathon hangover??

Post-Half-Marathon: Stomach was quesy but now is okay... Sunburn face.... quadriceps in pain, stomach muscles in pain and I'm limping.. erkkk... Note to self: Adequate training would've lessen the post-run muscles strain/injury....

But I'm glad it's over... So what to do with all the running gears? Am I running again? Yes, but not for another month... or maybe wait until the sutera harbor run. Heheheheheh...

For next time, what helps:-
1) Good preparation(including morning run)
2) Good night sleep
3) Power gels during the run
4) Training buddies
5) Schedule and sticking to it

Thanks for the luck wishes and also special "thanks" borneotrekker yang paksa me join in the first place... Now, buy me a free massage, my feeeeet is killling me...
Okay, now I've gotta rest my wrist and fingers

i survived!!!

2008-10-12T11:16:00.005+08:00

I survived my first ever half marathon (21 freakin kilometres)!!!

I finished in 3 hours and 16 minutes... well, not quite a world record, and u know what... the best for half marathon is 1 hour and 11 minutes! it truly shows that there isn't a limit of what our body can do....

aftermath: my stomach and quadriceps hurt... but finishing feels great!!!

i will blog about it later with more pictures!

off i'm go

2008-10-12T04:22:00.001+08:00

will be leaving in a bit for my run...

wish me luck!!!!

Test

2008-10-10T10:34:00.002+08:00

Mobile blogging
***yeay! i finally get to blog from my phone!!!!

3R

2008-10-10T10:03:00.005+08:00

Reuse... Reduce... Recycle...

To support the 3R.... I have bought few reusable bags, some more fancy (envirosax) and some less fancy (rm2.99 giant reusable bag)... Yes, fancy reusable bags are quite expensive, but it's fun and they're pretty.... So, what's wrong of wanting to practise 3R with fancy things right, it makes things more fun... I even bought jessie & lulu so my niece could use it when we groceries shopping together... Instilling green in kids? BTW, she loves this bag, and insisting on putting everything in here...

But imagine my disappointment when I was trying to use these bag @ Giant. The cashier said I MUST use their (super-thin) plastic bag that can bocor anytime on my way to the car. The reason is.... for security reason (like i would steal stuff!). Okay, that's my 1st experience... Then 2nd time, I bought their giant bag... that time I finally get them to put in my stuff in there... I went ahead and asked them whether it would be okay to bring the bag, and reuse that for my next purchase... And guess what she said, a plain and simple "No". So, I immediately pointed at the bag and said, "oh even tho in the bag it said reuse and recycle?". She simply shrugged. I think I will write about this and put my comment in the comment box...

It's such a disappointing thing actually, especially for big corporation like giant. I know in KL, places like tesco and jusco are already promoting less plastic-usage by their reusable bags. Tesco is selling their reusable bags for 99 cents, and if your bag is damaged, you can get a replacement for free...

I'm teaching my 4 yrs old niece to ask this question to cashier when the cashier insists to put stuff in plastic "But plastic cannot be recycled, and it takes 500 years to decompose. So what do you think?".... Let's see what are their reactions. hehehehhe...

Please click here on tips to reduce plastic (and paper) bag consumption

and be informed by these facts and figures regarding the true cost of plastic bags

I think I will only go to places which supports green.

raya photos

2008-10-08T10:53:00.003+08:00

am taking the advantage of FULL carbo-loading during raya period... Rendang, ketupat, nasi himpit, soto, raya cookies..... all goes into my stomach without second thoughts...

Here are some raya shots

i think tisha looks angelic here.... ahahhaha.. but u should see her during raya, kept digging in the glass cookies jar...

BIM is days away

2008-10-08T09:23:00.006+08:00

BIM is only days away, THREE days to be exact...

Borneotrekker asked me about my list... So here it is...

Before:
1. Buy gatorade, 100plus, 2 power gel (already bought 2:strawberry banana-1x caffeine & double latte-2x caffeine @GNC) (done)
2. (Decide and)Wash sports bra, shorts, socks to be used during the race and set it aside. (done)
3. Pick up registration pack (on friday-lunch break) (done)
4. Finalize mp3 songs for 3.5 hrs. Get rid of song that has lyrics like these "why am i doing this" or "time's so slow" or "i must be crazy" or "i can't go back in time"... (done)
5. Attach bib on vest. (done)
6. Attach chip on shoes (done)
7. Separate car key (leaving car alarm & 1 key only) (done)
8. Carbo-load... Carbo-load... Carbo-load... (done)

The day before:
1. Prepare post-race stuff in a bag: extra clothes, water, slipper, some cash.
2. Charge mp3 player to full
3. Charge phone to full
4. Drink plentyyy of fluid.... Aim: 1 ltr every 2-3 hours
5. Lay off running gears: top, running vest, shorts, socks, shoes, phone, mp3 players, powergel
6. Go to pasta party and carbo-load!
7. Sleep early

The morning:
1. Wake up at 4am
2. Breakfast menu: Strawberry wholemeal bread topped with peanut butter+nutella and half cup of coffee ( i know coffee is a no-no, but i can't start my day without coffee!)
3. Drink at least 500 ml fluid 1 hour before
4. Make sure I don't forget these: powergel, mp3 player, phone and post-race stuff!
5. Sunblock! Sunblock! Sunblock!

Pls let me know if I miss anything....

Eerrrrkkkkk, I'm nervous... Those who are available on sunday, plss come and cheer us up! And I'm all available if you want to give me good stuff to look forward to(eg, want to belanja me coffee bean after race or full body massage)...

Until next post...

makeup & skincare

2008-10-03T23:35:00.006+08:00

Today's entry is for girls only... warning: product review!

I am trying Clinique 3-steps... Let's see if I'm rajin enough to follow the regime when I come home late at night. I'd probably just wash my face and go to sleep straight, and say forget-it to toner&mosturizer. Some says the combinations of 3-steps can be drying on certain skin. For me, the last time I tried the facial soap(bar), it was certainly drying on my skin. So to avoid flaky skin, I choose the mildest of all, facial wash extra mild and toner#2 for dry/combination skin, then followed with dramatically mosturizing gel (oil-free) courtesy of mel who bought it from faraway.

I so like makeup of jlo... Very natural, glowy healthy skin!
Basic makeup:-

Mineralize satinfinish: light coverage, dewy-looking(not matte) and it has SPF15. But... as I said, it's pretty light coverage, and doesn't last as long as studio fix, so sometimes skin can look oily esp on a hot day.

My fav concealer:Studiofinish perfect to hide blemishes/dark circles. The best part of it, I only need very little amount of this, so this one small little pot can last quite awhile.Select Sheer Compact: Hmmm, other than the color is perfect for my skin-tone, I don't think there's anything special with it. I encountered few powders which can look-whitish/greyish on skins (wrong color!), so this is perfect for me. I think I might try body-shop one next time...
I don't really do the perfect-matte-full-makeup, so my foundation which I bought in march last year is still not-finished. Even my concealer still not 1/4 finished.... So, I guess you know how ~~ugly~~ un-polished I look most days.

Advice to girls: i think foundation is the most important makeup, so picking the right color is important. Your foundation is like your face pallete. So, if you have a perfect blemish-free skin, you are truly blessed. To draw colors (eg eye shadows, blushers) on a clean pallate is much better right? So, to choose, we want a color that blends with our skin-tone (read: definitely not lighter or else gonna look like a mask)... Frugal tips: If you find a (cosmetic counter)'s foundation that suits you, maybe you can bring leftovers of foundation and look for the same shade in drugstore. The same goes with compact powder.

Sure, makeup is fun, the blending, the brushing, the mixing and matching... But the worst part of all is removing every little trace of makeup at the end of the day. Don't even mention if putting on eyeliner/mascara, it takes many-many cotton balls with (gentle) eye-makeup remover to get rid of em. I guess that's the reason, I don't even care putting those two on. I truly salute those yang never without makeup, meaning those who take-off makeup for prayer at noon, then put on makeup again after that, then take off again in the evening. That's plentttyyy of work!

So, girls.. have fun with your makeup!

hari raya

2008-09-30T21:10:00.003+08:00

Hari Raya is tomorrow!

Yet, I am so freakin' nervous with my first and probably last half marathon everrrr NEXT WEEK... Blame it on borneotrekker who psyched my mind to join. Hahahaha.... Anyway, this week will be mostly tapering off my (nonexistant) training and hopefully my mind would be prepared for the unexpected. I mean 1 month of puasa (with few trainings in between) must count for something right.

Despite my (lack of) training, of course I must prepare the other stuff. eg, buy power gel and organize song list, decide what to bring on that day. And yea, I forgot the most important thing... deciding what to WEAR! hehehe.. trust me i think it is important, at least if I (hopefully not) fall, I'll be in my best attire ever. Heheheheh...

2 weeks of training left:
This week: wed: off**, thurs:off**, friday(7km), saturday(4km), sun(10km)
Next week:mon(off-because of makan2 at office),tues(6km), wed(5km),thurs(3km), fri(off),sat(off),sunday(Half Marathon)
**I'm from a family where girls are expected to serve coffee/tea, and probably I will be in charge of filling the cookies jar.

Anyway,

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone!
Maaf Zahir Batin

crazy over list

2008-09-26T09:30:00.003+08:00

i am a list person... i have memo pads & pen in my car, so in the midst of crazeee traffic i can make my list. It can be list of things to buy, list of things to pay, list of things i have to do, list of shows i want to download, and the list goes on forever....

well... so what does a list person do if she/he has to run for more than an hour. make a list in my head! the longest i've ran is 1 hour and 30 minutes, and even by the end of it, i ran out of things to think. okay... okaay... i know running is supposedly to-be-something relaxing where you keep your heads clear, let the wind blow your hair, and enjoy the scenery (n also men in super-short pant with buff body). but i can't do that! when i don't think about stuff, all i could think about is the cramping of my stomach, pain in my leg, my super-oily face, dripping sweats all over my body(yikes)...

So i guess i have to make my list again today... places i wanna go visit... food i want to eat... things i hate about people... things i love about people... funny things i've heard over the years... friends that i'd love to see again... relationship drama... goals in life.. financial goals.. places i want to be in 5 years time...

and you know what, by the end of my 1.5 hour run, i am exhausted physically and emotionally! help!!!

cravings

2008-09-25T15:29:00.003+08:00

I have craving for this....

Honeywheat bagel with strawberry cream cheese... I cannot find bagels anywhere in kk, except for maybe special order from whimsy's friend Janet who can make her own bagel! So, maybe next time I would have to learn to make my own cream cheeseMy favorite butter pecan ice-cream.

Lindor Truffles, creamy and absolutely heaven...

OK. Enough about food, I've got to jog 7km today... yikes... I think when I'm done, I gotta treat myself for some butter pecan ice-cream from tong hing ;)

info: running on empty stomach

2008-09-24T13:44:00.003+08:00

Countdown: 17 more days....

Last week, I started running again in the evening because of fear that I can't cope with hours of running next month... So far, I sucessfully get to drag myself to go around the lake. Good thing is I never missed sahur in the morning around 4am. Bad thing is by 4pm, my stomach would grumble... I wonder if running on empty stomach is good or bad? Then, I found this article...

Quote:
"Exercising on an empty stomach does not force the body to burn more fat. In some cases, it actually forces it to break down more muscle to get at amino acids, which is converted into glucose and then helps supply the body with energy. Small amounts of glucose are needed to burn fat. (Supplying muscle to help move the body)."

"Exercising for more than 30 minutes on an empty stomach or at the end of the day is unhealthy and unadvisable since, without the necessary energy to fuel your workout, your body will start using your muscles as an energy source. This is not an efficient form of energy, and you may overexert yourself and experience dizziness or dehydration."

Habislah my muscles will be burned out... I wonder if I should continue with my training... Maybe just walking perhaps to get more endurance?

preparation

2008-09-24T05:03:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for my off days! Three more working days until my super-long off days! Hooray.... Not that I'm excited for raya or anything. Celebrating raya when grown up is hmmmm let's just say can be energy consuming. Because if I could, I want to spend my last puasa (off) days by laying down on the couch while watching my long-list of tv shows rather than cleaning the house.

Speaking of tv, most fall tv is here even Heroes! Almost all shows are going to be back next week e.g. Dirty Sexy Money, Chuck, Pushing Daisies, Grey's and others. I think the oldest show I watch now is OTH... I sometimes think that the script writer must've been living in some sort of wrecked life and never had a truly fulfilling relationship. Somehow she/he came up with all the cheesy lines that if they're being said in real world, I think I would turn green. I watched the last episode where Nathan and Haley just got back from the doctor since Nathan's back has been hurting him. So, here what Nathan said to Haley:

Nathan: I played that game for you, Haley and you know what? I’d give it up for you too. Because as much as I love playing the game and the person that I am when I play it, I love being a husband and a father more.

I mean who would say that in real life??? The script writer's significant other might actually say this in real life.

Mr X: I do this because of me and you know what? I will never give it up just for you because you don't like it. Because as much as I enjoy this, I want you to be supportive with what I do. It's part of me, so if you don't like it, screw you.

Heheheheh.. Okay, maybe that's a tad passive-aggresive and quite cynical. I mean as much as I melt over cheesy lines, I still believe actions speak louder than words. Don't pay attention to what they say, because all matters are their actions. Practical and make sense?Anyway, I still enjoy OTH despite the melodramatic twenties years-old life and cheesy scripts. I mean, everyone is entitled to at least one guilty pleasure right?

On training, I did run(sometimes walk) yesterday for 5kms (including 2 km of warm up/cool down). My feet was (still) killing me, my head was throbbing, and no amount of "eye of the tiger" can move my feet any faster. So, I stopped early, and glad to be home then fell asleep at 9pm. This fasting month, normally on work days, I don't really go back to sleep after sahur. I think it would definitely help on my race day where I had to run at 6am (and i'm not even a morning person!!!).

Alamak, race day is coming close... I get anxious just thinking about it.

randomness

2008-09-22T20:15:00.005+08:00

omg! my feet is killing me! Good news, I just got back from 1 round of warm up+7 rounds of walk/run+1 round of cool down. The bad news is I finished my 7 rounds in 65 minutes..... By the end of it, I saw many many many stars on the sky. And how am I supposed to run 3 times of that, I have no idea...

I received this email sent by borneotrekker who the last time I saw look pretty fit ;)

"

Hi Runners,

If you want to know how to mentally push through the later stages of your race, then this could be the most important message you will ever read:

As your body becomes tired and possibly fatigued towards the later stages of your race, then you may find that your mind becomes negative.

You will find that these negative thoughts leave you feeling even more tired and overwhelmed and your physical state will drop to even lower levels.

To over come this, allow your mind to dwell on positive events in your life. Times when you felt strong and unstoppable. Remember how you felt. The way you were breathing and how that felt in your body.

Allow these feelings to take over your way of being, until you are feeling these powerful feelings throughout your body.

The more you dwell on these positive and powerful events from your past, the quicker you will regain your composure and strength... particularly in the later stages of your race.

Warmly,
David Styles "

I'm gonna need plenty of extra positive ion in my mindset to overcome this.... I welcome anybody who wants to belanja me buka puasa, or gifts... Remember, you do want me to have positive events before my run right?

until next time...

fitness journal (including warm up/cool down)
*17/9 - 4km
*18/9 - 6km
*20/9 -2km
*22/9 -9km